My Thoughts.

I will never be..
Good enough, or pretty enough
For any guy..past experiences teach you a lot.
And so far thats what I've been taught.
I guess all guys are the same!
ASSHOLES!

Best Feelings in the World

Are the ones that have no words to explain them.
Today, Celeste, Alex, and I delivered a food box to this family.
We pulled up to the trailer and I felt this sadness come over me.
But then again a sense of happiness.
We were giving them something, something they needed.
I can't describe how giving the family the box made me feel.
Ahh I'll remember it forever.
<3 :)

Diego Ray Roybal

Here's the deal with this kiddo.
He's super cute he's my little boyfrand. ha
He belongs to my cousin Jessica.
So it's kinda weird how he calls me his girlfriend.
It's cute though because he's only 2.
He was named after his uncle Diego.
Who died a few years back.
This little man is exactly like him.
He's even left handed like him.
Weird or weird?
He brings great joy to my life though.
I love love him a great deal.
<3 :) <3

My better day.

Friday November the 13th 2009
Woke up feeling refreshed, no longer..well you know.
School was a drag like always.
Now it's time for Friday night football.
Sunnyside Vs. Horizon
Let's go Blue Devils!

Now.. I have a love for monkeys.
This just so happened to be drawn for me.
I think he's just the cutest.
He took my mind off things.
:)

The days go on.

Yet it's still so hard to get over this.
I need to move on, I need to do it fast.
My heart can't take it anymore.
My eyes are all out of cries.
Day by day it will get better.
I know it will.

Last night.

Well what can I say?
It was one of those nights.
I expressed myself, maybe a tad too much?
I told them i'd cry and I did.
It is just hard to let him go.
Maybe I should text him?
But I just can't not now. Not ever.
I believe he knows I love him, I think he will know forever.
For sure I thought that girl would be me.
Now I have to try and deal with this.
Thanks Celeste for everything.
Oh and Alex thanks for listening to my drunk ass.
The thought of moving on.. I just can't.
My heart is broken and it will never heal.
This is great.